Sometimes life gets difficult. In my case, it’s gotten so hard that I had to take a break in order to take care of myself. My personality is like this, I will take care of everyone else except me. I’m a caregiver. That’s one of the reasons I became a nurse. I take care of people.
My heart is huge and my kindness is unmeasurable. I have several flaws within all that, one of which is I have no patience. Another flaw is that I will let things build up and build up until my emotions overflow and I break down. I am sure someone else out there is the same way. When this happens I usually cry alone. Sometimes I’ll go to the bathroom, run the water and break down until I’m sick. But God. God has placed people in my life that believe in me and know my heart. I am able to talk things out and feel better. They even let me cry it out. Isn’t that amazing?
Have you heard the saying when God takes something or people out of your life, He’ll replace it or them with something better? Well, at the beginning of this year, I made a huge mistake that cost me what I thought was two of my best friends. When I look at who I have to talk to in my life now, I realize that if they didn’t know my heart and realize I had no wrong intentions, simply because that is not who I am, then they weren’t genuine friends, to begin with.
The friends I have in my life now are family to me and are God-fearing women. Even if, like me, you have a family you can count on, sometimes you just need a friend who is on the outside looking in. My best friends told me that if someone can’t see that you would never do anything on purpose to hurt them, then they really don’t know you. So how are they, real friends? Real friends take time to see who you are.
Now, I see the difference between the two ex-friends and friends in my life today. I’m not judged or looked down upon because I’m disabled. They accept me for who I am. I’m lifted up in their hearts and in their prayers. I say all that to say this, sometimes God will blind you until it’s time for you to see who’s really in your corner. I’ve had to take a break and reevaluate my life and those in it. I learned when I lose friends, to remember it may be God’s plan.
It is okay to take a break from life during hardships. Sometimes you need to stop and just be still, get a change of scenery, or just sit down somewhere and do some soul-searching. Make sure your circle doesn’t have individuals who will turn their back on you. I am so glad I’m not like that especially when I know deep down they never meant to hurt me.
If you find yourself in a similar situation, take inventory so when you have to #takeabreak in life those in your circle will support you. Life is too short to surround yourself with the wrong people. If you see a back turned in your time of need, regardless of the reason, cut them loose. It’ll be hard, but God will replace them with someone so much better that you can always count on. Just believe.